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The “taste” of an oxygen mask … expected it to be more “pure” … more tasty ?!!! But it wasn’t even close. Or maybe it was the nebulization that contaminated the “yumminess”. I did want it to be more than that !!

Although the oxygen mask wasn’t that exciting, the precedings did make up for quite an eventful evening. We decided to celebrate Hari joining the Opera team here in Chd and thus headed out to the “Oriental Lounge” for drinks and dinner. We ordered the regular stuff, maybe the exception being some prawns that I requested. The meal was quite enjoyable and left all of us with a good taste, satisfied appetites and me, with a swollen inner cheek. I couldn’t make out what had happened, but suspected that I had an allergic reaction, or just bit my cheek. I’d guess it took me around 15 minutes to get home, and by the time I changed, my stomach felt like the food inside had expanded. In another 5 minutes I felt my lungs press against my chest. I was obviously quite uncomfortable and thus took an anti-allergic .. .just in case. Mom and dad left for a walk, and I thought I’d hit the bed.

The next 30 minutes were “quite an experience” … I almost choked, couldn’t breathe through my nose, I could feel my lungs, my windpipe and my stomach … all fighting for more area inside me. I felt like I was in a collapsing submarine, deep down in the ocean. Thats all I can remember thinking behind those watering eyes and a swollen face. I don’t know how long it exactly was, but felt like it took me almost 10 minutes to walk the 5 steps to my toilet. Then I felt myself suddenly being soaked out of energy, my legs started shivering and I was gasping for air so loud and fast that it was confusing me even more. I stood like that in front of the sink for a very long time. Had lost track of time completely. Mom and dad came back, I tried to take control so as to not make them panic, but failed .. and we rushed to the emergency.

As it turned out, it was an allergic reaction which triggered an asthamatic attack. After two shots of some anti-allergics, and 15 minutes on the oxygen mask … I felt much better.

It took me 15 minutes to go from “fine”-to-”so much internal chaos that I didn’t know if I was even capable of thinking”. Then 15 minutes and an anti-allergic tablet, two anti-allergic shots, nebulized oxygen and the energy from the ones who were there for me at that moment – mom, dad, a friend and my crazy brother , to get back to “fine” again.

Now I’m home, the doctors said, it was a chance attack. Allergies can’t be diagnosed before hand. So I guess I’m fine now, and will stay the same

I guess the “heavy dose” is now getting to me … or is it keeping me awake even now ?
Anyways, it was an experience I’d hate anyone to have. More so, it really scares me to think of what mom and dad must have gone through seeing me in such a condition. And I did feel helpless and craving for help.

I’m glad to be in the company of people who really care, and thankful that they’re here with me.